Everyone that "knows" me, knows how infatuated I am with the sky and all of its counterparts. Maybe I'm an alien from Mars, somewhere in the galaxy. It amazes me each and every time, it's like they speak to me through its own language. The sky delivers me peace of mind and serenity, it's attached to me like a baby is to its mother. It's a part of me, I love it.
Can't wait to see my star!
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Siento un vacio en el centro de mi ser,
siento como si no fuera un ser humano,
Me siento como un monstro:
Sin dolor, sin nada por dentro.
Me robaron a ti, mi mundo.
Tu eres mi mundo.
Ahora sin ti, me siento nada.
Pero a la misma vez, siento muchas cosas.
Siento dolor, siento remordimientos, siento rencor,
siento que me arrancaron mi sentido de sentir, de vivir.
Estoy perdida, perdida en el espacio.
Estoy gritando: ayuda, ayuda!
Me estoy ahogando, siento que estoy borrandome,
poco a poco,
NO EXISTO. MUERTA EN VIDA ES LO QUE SIENTO.
Mi Alma Perdida, regresas a mi!
Alma perdida, no soy nada sin ti.
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Lost, stuck, flabbergasted, dumbfounded, bamboozled can't even begin to describe the happenings that are surrounding my inner life, it simmers itself free, demonstrating its colors on my outer layer.
Anxious, I feel.
Lost, in a manner, that creates this power of frustration, of confusion.
Asphyxiation, smotherness, suffocation, constricted, stunted.
Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others,
even to the dull and ignorant; they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you
may become vain and bitter,
for always there will be greater
and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career,
however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing
fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business
affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue
there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign
affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and
disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of
youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you
in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark
imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and
loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline, be
gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe no less
than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here. And
whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it
should.
Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and
aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery and broken
dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
Max Ehrman
(c) Max Ehrman 1926
Today we have higher buildings and wider highways, but shorter temperaments and narrower points of view. We spend more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses, but smaller families. We have more compromises, but less time. We have more knowledge, but less judgment. We have more medicines, but less health. We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk much, we love only a little, and we hate too much. We reached the moon and came back, but we find it troublesome to cross our own street and meet our neighbors. We have conquered the outer space, but not our inner space. We have higher income, but less morals… These are times with more liberty, but less joy… With much more food, but less nutrition…These are days in which two salaries come home, but divorces increase. These are times of finer houses, but more broken homes. That's why I propose that as of today -- You do not keep anything for a special occasion, because every day that you live is a special occasion. Search for knowledge, read more, sit on your front porch and admire the view without paying attention to the needs. Pass more time with your family, eat your favorite food, visit the place you love. Life is a chain of moments of enjoyment; it isn't only survival. Use your crystal goblets. Do not save your best perfume… use it every time you feel you want it. Take out from your vocabulary phrases like, "one of these days" and "someday". Let's write that letter we thought of writing "one of these days…"Let's tell our families and friends how much we love them. Never pass up a chance at adding laughter and joy to your life. Every day, hour, and minute are special… Because you never know if it will be your last…If you're too busy to take some minutes to share this message with someone you love, and you tell yourself that you will share it "one of these days"… "one of these days" can be very far away, and you may not be there to see it…
Crying is what I am feeling right now. .
The King of Pop
August 25, 1958-June 25, 2009
The King of Pop dies at 50 years old!
I couldn't believe what I had heard, he was such an amazing INSPIRATION to all of us! Not to sound cliche, I felt really sad and down about it. I was hanging out in Soho with some friends and a girl asked us if it was true if Michael Jackson had died, that's how I found out about his tragic death. At first, I thought it was a hoax, but then I thought this cannot be a joke, nobody would play a joke like that. I cried. He was a great man, as far as his music goes. Throughout his whole career, the media and people kept on bashing him and calling him weird. Like let the man live, he was a very private, introvert man, what's wrong with that? And now that he has passed away, everyone wants to listen to his records and say nice things. People are still bashing him now, let the man rest in peace. Is no wonder that he might have been addicted to prescription medicine, he had a rough childhood, not that thats an excuse for him to act the way he did. He wasn't different, he just did things in a different style than the "norm" way that others would, so because he did things differently, he was called weird? Give me a break!
I thought uniqueness and individuality was a good thing. This is why he perhaps escaped from the criticism and judgmental world in his privacy, his Neverland ranch, and whatever else he used as an escape. So sad that he wasn't understood, that is all he wanted, to be understood!! It's like you're screaming but nobody hears you! It's a cruel, cruel world out there, it takes a toll on people especially when you are alone and have no one supporting you. Everyone wants to be understood! Is that so much to ask? Poor Michael! How would you feel if no one understood you as a person and your perspective?
The media was trying to bash him and tried to make him look like a psycho child molester. HATERS!! So much envy and hate in wanting to bring Michael down because he wasn't conforming to society and how they think people are suppose to be like. So wrong. He was and will always be a great man, THE LEGEND that he is. His music is beyond wonderful! Love you Mike.
Regardless of it all, I still like Michael! Michael is one of my favorite names.
A List of Records I Like (in random order):
-Beat It
-You Rock My World
-Dirty Diana
-Thriller
-Bad
-Smooth Criminal
-Billie Jean
-Heal The World
-Will You Be There?
-You Are Not Alone (My Fav)
amongst others....
REST IN PEACE MICHAEL!
Love is my favorite topic to speak and write about. It's universal and beautiful!
My absolute most preferred quote about love is from the Bible, it goes like this:
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I though like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but poor refelection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. And now these three remain: faith, hope, and love. But the greatest of these is love"
~1 Corinthians 13:4-13
Love makes the world go 'round. It is a beautiful, surreal feeling that nobody is quite ready to face in life, but it is something we all yearn for and it is something we all desire to have to completely satisfy our happiness to its fullest potential. Love is a gift from GOD. I never knew I could be so happy, I never knew I'd be so secure and so in love because of his love, life has a brand new meaning. It's gonna be a brighter day. I love how weird me and him are. I may complain at timea and think, but that's us, it's life.
I'M YOUR EVERYTHING, YOU'RE MY EVERYTHING!
When two people love each other, they are each other everything, no matter what! Ride or die 'till the end of time. We get each other, we are different yet similar at the same time. We compliment each other very well. Nobody understands, i LOVE us. Anthony Damiani and Rafaelina Siri
One of my quotes is:
"I will serenade you,
take you to the depths of my soul,
show you what is real"
~Rafaelina Siri
I'm glad that I have geniune feelings and that I feel, reminds me that I am human.
Love is such a magical feeling, the best feeling a human being could ever experience. It makes the world a better place, it makes people greater, filled with happiness. I love being in love and being loved in return by the greatest person I know, Our love is oure and sincere, He's my soulmate, the man I am going to spend the rest of my life with. That is something I know for sure, as he too knows. GOD has blessed me with his love and companionship, we love one other! And this is something that will never, ever change. Love is endless, love is GOD, love can't be described. It's an immense feeling you feel for someone else! I thank GOD everyday for creating this beauty. I am a true hopeless romantic. Love keeps me going as the days go by, my ultimate inspiration. He is my ultimate inspiration, when you know that someone is meant for you, you'll know!!!
There are times I still can't believe I have found someone worthwhile, my soulmate. It's so magical and surreal. I remember when I would always pray to God about love. As a child, I would always wonder where my soulmate lived. California? Japan? I would always wonder what he was up to and who he was. Strangely, I was never the kind of little girl to plan her wedding and her children's names. I never sat down and planned it. Of course, I thought of it, but it never occurred to me. I have been hurt by love, just like everyone else, heck I almost gave up on it. There were times when I even thought that love wasn't meant or made for me, as much as I tried to make myself believe that, I just couldn't. For I knew that it was going to find me.
LOVE FINDS YOU UNEXPECTEDLY, EVEN WHEN YOU DON'T WANT IT TO FIND YOU.
I am in LOVE with Snickers! It is truly the best candy in the world. It's taste is amazing, makes you just wanna devour that thing. I have not tasted this great thing in a pretty long time, I kinda miss it. Sorry Snickers, but I am eating very healthy and moderately now. Taste you soon!
P.S. You'll be a GREAT surprise and random gift, if you were accompanied with a beautiful set of a dozen PINK roses!
Having your heart broken and messed with is not one of the best feelings in the world. It hurts so much, it is something that every human being has to experience in this lifetime. I had to go through this heartache, you had to go through it, and so will everyone else. It is inevitable. Sometimes, it even makes you want to stop believing in love, perhaps it even makes you want to wish that it didn't exist, but without love there is no life. There are different kinds of love: love for a friend, love for a family member, love for a neighbor, love for life, love for an object. The primary kind of love that us human individuals emphasis our existence on is: ROMANTIC LOVE WITH THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE. Isn't that the best kind of love?
I have a few girlfriends who are experiencing heartbreak at the moment. It affects me seeing them this way and in a sense it makes me angry because I have experienced this When your heart is broken, all you can think about is how crappy and hurt you feel, speaking about it as much as you can to your friends, seeking advice(hence the added word blabbing in the title). Love hurts, love is pain, love is beautiful, love is everything, love is something we all look for, whether we intentionally are or not. My girlfriends ask me for advice and I give it to them, I'm pretty good with giving advice. I give them my realistic and sensitive comapassionate advice, but then again they sometimes don't take my advice into consideration. It's like why even bother asking for it, if you're going to listen to me. The real reason is because they do not wanna accept reality! Of course, they don't, they're hurt!
Love is heaven, this tingly butterfly effect you feel inside. It feels wonderful! This feeling is motivating, this feeling is inspiring, this feeling is unexplainable. I'll continue writing about love in my next blog.
If they're not gonna listen to me, stop BLABBING! My ears hurt from all the blabbing and repetition of the same exact thing. It vexs the living crap out of me, it seriously frustrates me more than this recession we currently are dealing with. If they're not gonna listen to me, get a journal or better yet a blog! Like this one, it really works wonders for the soul.
Yesterday was the best day ever! I was at the South Street Seaport yesterday afternoon for a Kid Cudi concert by Paper Magazine! It was sooo awesome :)
I'll be editing this blog today with more pictures and writing :)
The song "Fix You" by Coldplay! (besides my awesome boyfriend, he's another amazing story =)),from their X and Y album. The instrumental is more than amazing, I don't get tired of it. It's almost as if it's some sort of remedy for my sanity. It brings peace and harmony, amongst other favorite songs that I adore <3.
"When you try your best but you don't succeed, when you get what you want, but not what you need, when you feel so tired but you can't sleep, stuck in reverse. And the tears come streaming down your face, when you leave something you can replace, when you love someone but it goes to waste, could it be worse? Lights will guide you home, and ignite your bones and I will try to fix you. And high up above or down below, when you're too in love to let it go but if you never try you'll never know just what you're worth"
If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition or spirit to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then hell no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better (try three). The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later. You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are. He is a man, nothing more nothing less. Never let a man define who you are. NEVER BORROW SOMEONE ELSE'S MAN. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you. A man will only treat you the way you allow him to treat you. All men are not dogs. You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is two way street. You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship. You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you... a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals... look for someone complimentary...not supplementary. Dating is fun... even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right. Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and your always readily available to him- he takes it for granted. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need. Keep him in your radar but get to know others. Share this with other ladies..... You'll make someone smile, another rethink her choices, and another woman prepare. They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.
I was having an okay morning on Friday, May 30th. It was raining and I hadn't gone to sleep at all. I decided not to go to sleep because it was one of my best friend Sheila's graduation. It was great, I felt proud!! I was up till about 5am and so I decided to stay up because I knew that I was not going to wake up at 9 in the morning. I didn't wanna miss her graduation. So, I took a bath, and got dressed immediately, in my black slacks and black blazer. I hopped on the M101 bus then transferred to the BX3 and got there in 15 minutes =) ; when I got there, I crossed the street and I see street vendors selling flowers, balloons, and teddy bears for the graduates. I called Sheila and she was a few feet away from me, going up the stairs. Those stairs were longgg, lol. Since obviously I wasn't a graduate, I had to wait ,with everyone, while the graduates went inside. (The graduation was outside, as you can see on the picture, hehe). It was sort of disorganized and a little bit chaotic, I entered through the side of the field and searched for a seat. There were no good seats whatsoever. I wa
s looking for seats, for me, Sheila's aunt Elizabeth, her mother Jeannette, her little sister Mia, and her beloved sons Jaeden and Brandon =) There were so many empty seats that were suppose to be for the privileged folks, as soon as we were allowed to enter the tent, everyone jumped to get seats. Lol, it was the funniest thing, worst than the people on the MTA. I was taking care of the children, while we were at the graduation, it was real nice. The speeches were nice and the valedictorian 's GPA was a 3.8! Ughh, I was a bit annoyed because my heels were sinking into the wet soil. Before I knew it, the sun was SHINING!! That was a great thing.
(me and Jaeden pictured on the right). There was so much food at her school, goodness, I ate sooo much cheese. I LOVE cheese!! Sheila and the clan drove around, picked up Justin at school then hanged out, listened to music on the laptop. I was so exhausted, I don't know how I stayed up all day without a nap. I was falling asleep in the backyard, ahhh, lol. We went to Sheila's to change into our nightwear..
Afterwards, we went to Jeannette's house (Sheila's mom) and hunged out for a while: drank and ate a bit. Her aunt Belkys and Elizabeth are the best, they are a boost. i promised GOD I was not going to be drinking like that and I didn't. I felt very nice. By the way, to avoid misunderstandings, I am not an alcoholic, haha. I hydrated myself with water. Hanging there as great, the house is beautiful. It's a duplex, yes, awesomness. It was pretty entertaining. .Look at the kids, lol. This was the best picture of the bunch =)
Group shot----------------------------------->
We were literally having a photo shoot outside. It was so hot inside, I tend to have hot flashes, so it was not going well for me. I hate when I get those, I feel like an old lady going through menopause or something -_- Me and my chicas danced the night away at Eros Lounge! I was feeling great, but as the day went by, my mood went down. I MISSED MY BABE, that's what it was!!! He's so amazing Lord Jesus Christ, seriously. I was more in the mood for spending time with him and perhaps go out somewhere in the city and be FREEEEEEE!!! My friend Coco's birthday party was going down, she's such a sweetheart. We smoked some hookah inside, I had to, i was trying to alleviate
my foot pain and my mild emo-ness. I was wearing the cutest gold shoes, but they were KILLING me as the night went by. I was containing myself deep down inside and enjoyed myself as much as possible. My girla, Alexandra, looked so hot in her red American Apparel dress. Her butt was like PA POWWWWW!! Lol, I love you Alex. All the girls were dancing like the crazy bitches that they are. I looked so great in them jeans, oh my. We left the lounge around 3am or 4am. Since Sheila lives close by, we decided to walk to her house. WRONGGGG!! That was the biggest mistake ever. We were getting harassed by all these hoodlum guys, as if they never seened beautiful women before, it was ridiculous.
Saturday May 31st, thinking about the night, looking forward to hanging out with my friends.
I was looking GREAT by the way with my high-waisted pants, beautiful pink and turquoise earrings with my turquoise 4 inch heels. I felt awesome ;) ; my babe came! I walked down the block to meet up with him with Sheila, saw Ilani and Krissy on the way. They're cool peeps. I was so happy to see him, as alwaysss. He's the cream to my cookies [= I brought along my posee: my bff Kemal, Sheila, my twin sis Julianna, etc., hung out in the hallway mainly, the p
arty was out there as well you can say, lol. My babe got me some Pepsi with ice, I was sharing it with Kemo. The atmosphere, on the other hand, was weird and intense. I felt tension in the air as if something bad was about to happen. I have good instincts. I believe there was a fight or some type of argument downstairs because people were running downstairs as if some chaos occurred. Before you know it, the police came and said, "PARTY IS OVER". I was like woww, are you serious? The funniest part was when the cop said, "AND LEAVE THE CUP BEHIND", to my my best friend Kemal, whom by the way is Caucasian/European. We were all like no, it's Pepsi, ha. I thought he was actually going to check the cup, instead he goes to Kemo, "You are a good man" and shook his hand. LMAO. I was like whatttt, are you kidding me? If that were me holding the cup or anyone else who was there, he would've DEFINITELY checked our cups. Why? Because we are MINORITIES. I was like wow Kemo, it's all because you are white. That was pretty entertaining, mmmm. As we're going downstairs and approaching the street, there are a bunch of cop cars outside along with people. My friend Cristal shows up last minute. We all w
alked the opposite direction, trying to figure out what we were gonna do next. At 3am, we were on the corner trying to figure out what we were going to do. I wanted to just go home. We were there for like 20-30 minutes then we meet up with my cousin, Marvin and all his amigos. My cousin is the funniest guy everrrr, lol. His friend, Chris, had a bouquet of flowers and i forgot why. We hopped on two separate cabs to another party and saw a few of my friends there. It was pumping, I thought yes my night did not go to waste and boom. Needless to say, that get-together ended 10 minutes after I got there because the cops were coming. LOL. What a night. So we all walked to Sheila's house, luckily, she lives close by from where we were. Me and my hubby, my babe, the love of my life walked behind everyone, hand-in-hand. We stayed behind because he took a picture of me =); he's the greatest guy ever. I'll post up a blog, exclusively dedicated to him. Stay posted. We all went to Sheila's and made some sweet, good food, cracked jokes, and drank a bit. It turned out to be a great night afterall.
1. Watch the sunset together.
2. Whisper to each other.
3. Cook for each other.
4. Walk in the rain.
5. Hold hands
6. Buy gifts for each other.
7. Roses.
8. Find out their favorite cologne/perfume and wear it every time you're together.
9. Go for a long walk down the beach at midnight.
10. Write poetry for each other.
11. Hugs are the universal medicine.
12. Say only when you mean it and make sure they know you mean it.
13. Give random gifts of flowers/candy/poetry etc.
14. Tell her that she's the only girl you ever want. Don't lie!
15. Spend every second possible together.
16. Look into each other's eyes.
17. Very lightly push up her chin, look into her eyes, tell her you love her, and kiss her lightly.
18. When in public, only flirt with each other.
19. Put love notes in their pockets when they aren't looking.
20. Buy her a ring.
21. Sing to each other.
22. Always hold her around her hips/sides.
23. Take her to dinner and do the dinner for two deal.
24. Spaghetti?
25. Hold her hand, stare into her eyes, kiss her hand and then put it over your heart.
26. Dance together.
27. I love the way a girl looks right after she's fallen asleep with her head in my lap.
28. Do cute things like write I love you in a note so that they have to look in a mirror to read it.
29. Make excuses to call them every 5 minutes.
30. Even if you are really busy doing something, go out of your way to call and say I love you.
31. Call from your vacation spot to tell them you were thinking about them.
32. Remember your dreams and tell her about them.
33. P.D.A
34. Tell each other your most sacred secrets/fears.
35. Be Prince Charming to her parents.
36. Brush her hair out of her face for her.
37. Hang out with his/her friends.
38. Go to church/pray/worship together.
39. Take her to see a romantic movie and remember the parts she liked.
40. Learn from each other and don't make the same mistake twice.
41. Describe the joy you feel just to be with him/her.
42. Make sacrifices for each other.
43. Really love each other, or don't stay together.
44. Let there never be a second during any given day that you aren't thinking about them, and make sure they know it.
45. Love yourself before you love anyone else.
46. Learn to say sweet things in foreign languages.
47. Dedicate songs to them on the radio.
48. Fall asleep on the phone with each other.
49. Stand up for them when someone talks trash.
50. Never forget the kiss goodnight and always remember to say, "Sweet dreams."
I'm sitting here on my computer, I haven't written on my blog for a while now. I always write, it is something i LOVE with all my heart! I wish life were less complicated right now, things aren't looking quite well as I would expect it to be. I am currently out of a J-O-B like millions of other people dealing with these tough times in this recession. I don't know how this government expects people to make ends meet, it's tough out there. I can't be at home as much as I would like, on top of that traveling back and forth between New York and New Jersey can be unbearable and it drives me nuts, really. In life, you have to make sacrifices in order to progress and my sacrifice is not being at home in my own room, in my own space with my parents. There is not place like home! I wish I was more at peace with life, I'm happy with some aspects of my life like having my great family, my close few friends, and my amazing boyfriend: they really make life worthwhile and easier to cope with. Don't get me wrong, life is beautiful and I love it, no one said it was going to be easy, it comes to show how determined and how strong and motivated you are to reach your utmost abilities and conquer your dreams and where you wanna be by the time I'm 25. But one thing I never lose, no matter how frustrating and arghh things get, is HOPE and FAITH. I truly do believe in God and I know that he is gonna give me a break some day soon. I'm going to be a successful model actress and writer. I love the arts, it is so amazingggg, nothing but love! Like emotionally, I don't and haven't been feeling well. I feel lousy and low like I am not worthy of anything. I wish my life would be 1000 times better in terms of career and residence situation, but I am sorta of content with what I have and I have to appreciate that because there are so many people out there who have worst than me and have nothing. I have an AMAZING boyfriend named Anthony. He really is a great person, I see myself in him in so many ways and his sparkly eyes have a wonderful story to tellm they say so much. I see myself being with him for the rest of my life. He is truly my gift from GOD. There aren't words to explain how he makes me feel, how I feel about him, as cliche as it sounds. He makes everything more alleviating!! On a brighter note,
I worked out today, I'm maintaining my shape and eating well. I should be signed to a major modeling agency in the city pretty soon (I hope so). My parents arranged a family meeting for this Friday, I've been invited to so many places for Saturday, and Mother's Day is on Sunday, AHHHHHHHHHH! I'm gonna go insane, being on a budget is not easy at all and on top of the fact that I paid for my frigging' phone bill. (i love my BLACKBERRY tho!) i don't know what I'm gonna do, but hey I got 2 interviews and I had a photo shoot, kudos for me! :) I am writing a love letter to my gorgeous other half, it relaxes and soothes my soul! LORD, thank you for sending him to me! And thank you for having me here on Earth, you have given me great people to coexist with! i love them all! I'm listening to soft, serene music... I hope I get well soon....Goodnight world.
~Rafaelina
In this episode, George's insensitive mother, Benny is depressed. She lost her house, her car, her life savings, her dog, her everything in a fire. Her boss comes and brings her flowers, supposedly he wants to see how she's doing. She's been out of work for 2 weeks, but what he really went for was to tell her that if she doesn't get back to work by Monday, she was going to be replaced. He says to George, "She's shouting at lambs and eating out of garbage cans. I kinda wanted to see that." This show is just too much, uh I just wanted to say that.
I'm sitting here with this massive teethache. Yes, teeth as in plural, more than one and I'm all bundled up, cold in this house. Like who bundles up to be home? I. Ugh. My whole head and the right side of my face has been hurting for a few days now, including all the teeth on my right side, due to congestion I suppose. Just a few days ago, it hurted to blow my nose because my right ear would get clogged and make weird noises. I was deaf! I have never felt pain inside my face, it sucks soooo bad! I have a doctor's appointment on Tuesday, praise the beautiful Lord. I can't wait!! I really do not like taking medicine, in fact I hate it. So I have been drinking water, praying, massaging, and a bit of ibuproben I must admit even though it's just a temporary pain reliever that doesn't do much but it's something. Mucinex I need, perhaps TheraFlu, how about both. I've been thinking about going to the E.R., but having to wait for long hours wasn't something I wanted. F.Y.I: Medicine is not good.
I prayed earlier. I prayed soooo passionately to G O D that he takes the pain away. Someone told me that there's power in prayer, that someone is my amazing boyfriend Anthony, but I already knew that except he made me believe in it more than I already did. After a while, the pain drastically went down. I had a feeling my prayer was going to be heard. And yep you guessed right, the pain is gonee! Now the pain is minor, it is pounding a bit, just a bit.
Btw, Happy New Years to everyone out there :] I can't believe it's 2009 already, whoaaaa.
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