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Saturday, June 27, 2009

The Best Candy, SNICKERS!

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I am in LOVE with Snickers! It is truly the best candy in the world. It's taste is amazing, makes you just wanna devour that thing. I have not tasted this great thing in a pretty long time, I kinda miss it. Sorry Snickers, but I am eating very healthy and moderately now. Taste you soon! P.S. You'll be a GREAT surprise and random gift, if you were accompanied with a beautiful set of a dozen PINK roses!

Heartbroken Hearts & Blabbing 101

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Having your heart broken and messed with is not one of the best feelings in the world. It hurts so much, it is something that every human being has to experience in this lifetime. I had to go through this heartache, you had to go through it, and so will everyone else. It is inevitable. Sometimes, it even makes you want to stop believing in love, perhaps it even makes you want to wish that it didn't exist, but without love there is no life. There are different kinds of love: love for a friend, love for a family member, love for a neighbor, love for life, love for an object. The primary kind of love that us human individuals emphasis our existence on is: ROMANTIC LOVE WITH THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE. Isn't that the best kind of love? I have a few girlfriends who are experiencing heartbreak at the moment. It affects me seeing them this way and in a sense it makes me angry because I have experienced this When your heart is broken, all you can think about is how crappy and hurt you feel, speaking about it as much as you can to your friends, seeking advice(hence the added word blabbing in the title). Love hurts, love is pain, love is beautiful, love is everything, love is something we all look for, whether we intentionally are or not. My girlfriends ask me for advice and I give it to them, I'm pretty good with giving advice. I give them my realistic and sensitive comapassionate advice, but then again they sometimes don't take my advice into consideration. It's like why even bother asking for it, if you're going to listen to me. The real reason is because they do not wanna accept reality! Of course, they don't, they're hurt! Love is heaven, this tingly butterfly effect you feel inside. It feels wonderful! This feeling is motivating, this feeling is inspiring, this feeling is unexplainable. I'll continue writing about love in my next blog. If they're not gonna listen to me, stop BLABBING! My ears hurt from all the blabbing and repetition of the same exact thing. It vexs the living crap out of me, it seriously frustrates me more than this recession we currently are dealing with. If they're not gonna listen to me, get a journal or better yet a blog! Like this one, it really works wonders for the soul.
Friday, June 26, 2009

Kid Cudi Concert-The Best Friday Ever!

Yesterday was the best day ever! I was at the South Street Seaport yesterday afternoon for a Kid Cudi concert by Paper Magazine! It was sooo awesome :) I'll be editing this blog today with more pictures and writing :)
Thursday, June 25, 2009

I Love...

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The song "Fix You" by Coldplay! (besides my awesome boyfriend, he's another amazing story =)),from their X and Y album. The instrumental is more than amazing, I don't get tired of it. It's almost as if it's some sort of remedy for my sanity. It brings peace and harmony, amongst other favorite songs that I adore <3. "When you try your best but you don't succeed, when you get what you want, but not what you need, when you feel so tired but you can't sleep, stuck in reverse. And the tears come streaming down your face, when you leave something you can replace, when you love someone but it goes to waste, could it be worse? Lights will guide you home, and ignite your bones and I will try to fix you. And high up above or down below, when you're too in love to let it go but if you never try you'll never know just what you're worth"
Monday, June 22, 2009

Only You...

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A lot of people know the surface side of me, the side they see while I'm working or just going through the day... But there's another side of me - an inside - that people never see. It's a part that's full of a thousand thoughts; a part that embraces love and cherishes friendship, a part that understands without need for words, a part that has yearnings and desires and prayers. The inside of me has so many moods that the outside never shows. For once in my life, though . . . I trust someone implicitly and I care about someone in a totally understand way. I feel like it's okay to let that someone in, to let them see me emotionally and physically as naturally and as naked as I can be. I have given myself to you and told you things that I've never told another soul . . . You are the one person who has seen me trembling and as fearful as an injured bird; you are the one person I always want to take with me when I feel exhilarated and my spirits are soaring. I trust you with my secrets, and you know that you can trust me with yours. This sharing . . .this special sharing . . . is one of the nicest dimensions my life has ever known.

A Special Chance

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You and I took a special chance the first time we met... we both knew enough of love, and life, to understand that two people don't fall in love, they grow into it, slowly - and we'd both been hurt before by feelings that seemed too easily lost... but there was something between us from the beginning, a unique harmony that made us take that special chance... You and I took a special chance the first time we argued... after feeling hurt and sad, and both of us trying to apologize and the same time for disagreeing over such a small matter, we knew that our relationship was worth more... than anything that might come between us, and we knew that after that first time that what we had together would see us through the hard times and make us better appreciate the good, because we took that special chance... You and I took a special chance the first time we said, "I love you"... for we knew that we would share stormy as well as sunny times, laughter and tears, some dreams that would come beautifully true, and others that would fade in our memories - and we knew in our hearts that our love deserved all the effort we could make to fulfill our life together... for we took that special chance... and found a very special love.
Friday, June 19, 2009

Something To Share With The Ladies...

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If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition or spirit to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then hell no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better (try three). The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later. You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are. He is a man, nothing more nothing less. Never let a man define who you are. NEVER BORROW SOMEONE ELSE'S MAN. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you. A man will only treat you the way you allow him to treat you. All men are not dogs. You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is two way street. You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship. You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you... a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals... look for someone complimentary...not supplementary. Dating is fun... even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right. Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and your always readily available to him- he takes it for granted. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need. Keep him in your radar but get to know others. Share this with other ladies..... You'll make someone smile, another rethink her choices, and another woman prepare. They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009

This Past Weekend...May30th & May 31st.

I was having an okay morning on Friday, May 30th. It was raining and I hadn't gone to sleep at all. I decided not to go to sleep because it was one of my best friend Sheila's graduation. It was great, I felt proud!! I was up till about 5am and so I decided to stay up because I knew that I was not going to wake up at 9 in the morning. I didn't wanna miss her graduation. So, I took a bath, and got dressed immediately, in my black slacks and black blazer. I hopped on the M101 bus then transferred to the BX3 and got there in 15 minutes =) ; when I got there, I crossed the street and I see street vendors selling flowers, balloons, and teddy bears for the graduates. I called Sheila and she was a few feet away from me, going up the stairs. Those stairs were longgg, lol. Since obviously I wasn't a graduate, I had to wait ,with everyone, while the graduates went inside. (The graduation was outside, as you can see on the picture, hehe). It was sort of disorganized and a little bit chaotic, I entered through the side of the field and searched for a seat. There were no good seats whatsoever. I was looking for seats, for me, Sheila's aunt Elizabeth, her mother Jeannette, her little sister Mia, and her beloved sons Jaeden and Brandon =) There were so many empty seats that were suppose to be for the privileged folks, as soon as we were allowed to enter the tent, everyone jumped to get seats. Lol, it was the funniest thing, worst than the people on the MTA. I was taking care of the children, while we were at the graduation, it was real nice. The speeches were nice and the valedictorian 's GPA was a 3.8! Ughh, I was a bit annoyed because my heels were sinking into the wet soil. Before I knew it, the sun was SHINING!! That was a great thing. (me and Jaeden pictured on the right). There was so much food at her school, goodness, I ate sooo much cheese. I LOVE cheese!! Sheila and the clan drove around, picked up Justin at school then hanged out, listened to music on the laptop. I was so exhausted, I don't know how I stayed up all day without a nap. I was falling asleep in the backyard, ahhh, lol. We went to Sheila's to change into our nightwear.. Afterwards, we went to Jeannette's house (Sheila's mom) and hunged out for a while: drank and ate a bit. Her aunt Belkys and Elizabeth are the best, they are a boost. i promised GOD I was not going to be drinking like that and I didn't. I felt very nice. By the way, to avoid misunderstandings, I am not an alcoholic, haha. I hydrated myself with water. Hanging there as great, the house is beautiful. It's a duplex, yes, awesomness. It was pretty entertaining. .Look at the kids, lol. This was the best picture of the bunch =) Group shot-----------------------------------> We were literally having a photo shoot outside. It was so hot inside, I tend to have hot flashes, so it was not going well for me. I hate when I get those, I feel like an old lady going through menopause or something -_- Me and my chicas danced the night away at Eros Lounge! I was feeling great, but as the day went by, my mood went down. I MISSED MY BABE, that's what it was!!! He's so amazing Lord Jesus Christ, seriously. I was more in the mood for spending time with him and perhaps go out somewhere in the city and be FREEEEEEE!!! My friend Coco's birthday party was going down, she's such a sweetheart. We smoked some hookah inside, I had to, i was trying to alleviate my foot pain and my mild emo-ness. I was wearing the cutest gold shoes, but they were KILLING me as the night went by. I was containing myself deep down inside and enjoyed myself as much as possible. My girla, Alexandra, looked so hot in her red American Apparel dress. Her butt was like PA POWWWWW!! Lol, I love you Alex. All the girls were dancing like the crazy bitches that they are. I looked so great in them jeans, oh my. We left the lounge around 3am or 4am. Since Sheila lives close by, we decided to walk to her house. WRONGGGG!! That was the biggest mistake ever. We were getting harassed by all these hoodlum guys, as if they never seened beautiful women before, it was ridiculous. Saturday May 31st, thinking about the night, looking forward to hanging out with my friends. I was looking GREAT by the way with my high-waisted pants, beautiful pink and turquoise earrings with my turquoise 4 inch heels. I felt awesome ;) ; my babe came! I walked down the block to meet up with him with Sheila, saw Ilani and Krissy on the way. They're cool peeps. I was so happy to see him, as alwaysss. He's the cream to my cookies [= I brought along my posee: my bff Kemal, Sheila, my twin sis Julianna, etc., hung out in the hallway mainly, the party was out there as well you can say, lol. My babe got me some Pepsi with ice, I was sharing it with Kemo. The atmosphere, on the other hand, was weird and intense. I felt tension in the air as if something bad was about to happen. I have good instincts. I believe there was a fight or some type of argument downstairs because people were running downstairs as if some chaos occurred. Before you know it, the police came and said, "PARTY IS OVER". I was like woww, are you serious? The funniest part was when the cop said, "AND LEAVE THE CUP BEHIND", to my my best friend Kemal, whom by the way is Caucasian/European. We were all like no, it's Pepsi, ha. I thought he was actually going to check the cup, instead he goes to Kemo, "You are a good man" and shook his hand. LMAO. I was like whatttt, are you kidding me? If that were me holding the cup or anyone else who was there, he would've DEFINITELY checked our cups. Why? Because we are MINORITIES. I was like wow Kemo, it's all because you are white. That was pretty entertaining, mmmm. As we're going downstairs and approaching the street, there are a bunch of cop cars outside along with people. My friend Cristal shows up last minute. We all walked the opposite direction, trying to figure out what we were gonna do next. At 3am, we were on the corner trying to figure out what we were going to do. I wanted to just go home. We were there for like 20-30 minutes then we meet up with my cousin, Marvin and all his amigos. My cousin is the funniest guy everrrr, lol. His friend, Chris, had a bouquet of flowers and i forgot why. We hopped on two separate cabs to another party and saw a few of my friends there. It was pumping, I thought yes my night did not go to waste and boom. Needless to say, that get-together ended 10 minutes after I got there because the cops were coming. LOL. What a night. So we all walked to Sheila's house, luckily, she lives close by from where we were. Me and my hubby, my babe, the love of my life walked behind everyone, hand-in-hand. We stayed behind because he took a picture of me =); he's the greatest guy ever. I'll post up a blog, exclusively dedicated to him. Stay posted. We all went to Sheila's and made some sweet, good food, cracked jokes, and drank a bit. It turned out to be a great night afterall.