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Monday, June 22, 2009

A Special Chance

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You and I took a special chance the first time we met... we both knew enough of love, and life, to understand that two people don't fall in love, they grow into it, slowly - and we'd both been hurt before by feelings that seemed too easily lost... but there was something between us from the beginning, a unique harmony that made us take that special chance... You and I took a special chance the first time we argued... after feeling hurt and sad, and both of us trying to apologize and the same time for disagreeing over such a small matter, we knew that our relationship was worth more... than anything that might come between us, and we knew that after that first time that what we had together would see us through the hard times and make us better appreciate the good, because we took that special chance... You and I took a special chance the first time we said, "I love you"... for we knew that we would share stormy as well as sunny times, laughter and tears, some dreams that would come beautifully true, and others that would fade in our memories - and we knew in our hearts that our love deserved all the effort we could make to fulfill our life together... for we took that special chance... and found a very special love.
Friday, June 19, 2009

Something To Share With The Ladies...

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If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition or spirit to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then hell no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better (try three). The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later. You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are. He is a man, nothing more nothing less. Never let a man define who you are. NEVER BORROW SOMEONE ELSE'S MAN. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you. A man will only treat you the way you allow him to treat you. All men are not dogs. You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is two way street. You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship. You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you... a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals... look for someone complimentary...not supplementary. Dating is fun... even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right. Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and your always readily available to him- he takes it for granted. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need. Keep him in your radar but get to know others. Share this with other ladies..... You'll make someone smile, another rethink her choices, and another woman prepare. They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009

This Past Weekend...May30th & May 31st.

I was having an okay morning on Friday, May 30th. It was raining and I hadn't gone to sleep at all. I decided not to go to sleep because it was one of my best friend Sheila's graduation. It was great, I felt proud!! I was up till about 5am and so I decided to stay up because I knew that I was not going to wake up at 9 in the morning. I didn't wanna miss her graduation. So, I took a bath, and got dressed immediately, in my black slacks and black blazer. I hopped on the M101 bus then transferred to the BX3 and got there in 15 minutes =) ; when I got there, I crossed the street and I see street vendors selling flowers, balloons, and teddy bears for the graduates. I called Sheila and she was a few feet away from me, going up the stairs. Those stairs were longgg, lol. Since obviously I wasn't a graduate, I had to wait ,with everyone, while the graduates went inside. (The graduation was outside, as you can see on the picture, hehe). It was sort of disorganized and a little bit chaotic, I entered through the side of the field and searched for a seat. There were no good seats whatsoever. I was looking for seats, for me, Sheila's aunt Elizabeth, her mother Jeannette, her little sister Mia, and her beloved sons Jaeden and Brandon =) There were so many empty seats that were suppose to be for the privileged folks, as soon as we were allowed to enter the tent, everyone jumped to get seats. Lol, it was the funniest thing, worst than the people on the MTA. I was taking care of the children, while we were at the graduation, it was real nice. The speeches were nice and the valedictorian 's GPA was a 3.8! Ughh, I was a bit annoyed because my heels were sinking into the wet soil. Before I knew it, the sun was SHINING!! That was a great thing. (me and Jaeden pictured on the right). There was so much food at her school, goodness, I ate sooo much cheese. I LOVE cheese!! Sheila and the clan drove around, picked up Justin at school then hanged out, listened to music on the laptop. I was so exhausted, I don't know how I stayed up all day without a nap. I was falling asleep in the backyard, ahhh, lol. We went to Sheila's to change into our nightwear.. Afterwards, we went to Jeannette's house (Sheila's mom) and hunged out for a while: drank and ate a bit. Her aunt Belkys and Elizabeth are the best, they are a boost. i promised GOD I was not going to be drinking like that and I didn't. I felt very nice. By the way, to avoid misunderstandings, I am not an alcoholic, haha. I hydrated myself with water. Hanging there as great, the house is beautiful. It's a duplex, yes, awesomness. It was pretty entertaining. .Look at the kids, lol. This was the best picture of the bunch =) Group shot-----------------------------------> We were literally having a photo shoot outside. It was so hot inside, I tend to have hot flashes, so it was not going well for me. I hate when I get those, I feel like an old lady going through menopause or something -_- Me and my chicas danced the night away at Eros Lounge! I was feeling great, but as the day went by, my mood went down. I MISSED MY BABE, that's what it was!!! He's so amazing Lord Jesus Christ, seriously. I was more in the mood for spending time with him and perhaps go out somewhere in the city and be FREEEEEEE!!! My friend Coco's birthday party was going down, she's such a sweetheart. We smoked some hookah inside, I had to, i was trying to alleviate my foot pain and my mild emo-ness. I was wearing the cutest gold shoes, but they were KILLING me as the night went by. I was containing myself deep down inside and enjoyed myself as much as possible. My girla, Alexandra, looked so hot in her red American Apparel dress. Her butt was like PA POWWWWW!! Lol, I love you Alex. All the girls were dancing like the crazy bitches that they are. I looked so great in them jeans, oh my. We left the lounge around 3am or 4am. Since Sheila lives close by, we decided to walk to her house. WRONGGGG!! That was the biggest mistake ever. We were getting harassed by all these hoodlum guys, as if they never seened beautiful women before, it was ridiculous. Saturday May 31st, thinking about the night, looking forward to hanging out with my friends. I was looking GREAT by the way with my high-waisted pants, beautiful pink and turquoise earrings with my turquoise 4 inch heels. I felt awesome ;) ; my babe came! I walked down the block to meet up with him with Sheila, saw Ilani and Krissy on the way. They're cool peeps. I was so happy to see him, as alwaysss. He's the cream to my cookies [= I brought along my posee: my bff Kemal, Sheila, my twin sis Julianna, etc., hung out in the hallway mainly, the party was out there as well you can say, lol. My babe got me some Pepsi with ice, I was sharing it with Kemo. The atmosphere, on the other hand, was weird and intense. I felt tension in the air as if something bad was about to happen. I have good instincts. I believe there was a fight or some type of argument downstairs because people were running downstairs as if some chaos occurred. Before you know it, the police came and said, "PARTY IS OVER". I was like woww, are you serious? The funniest part was when the cop said, "AND LEAVE THE CUP BEHIND", to my my best friend Kemal, whom by the way is Caucasian/European. We were all like no, it's Pepsi, ha. I thought he was actually going to check the cup, instead he goes to Kemo, "You are a good man" and shook his hand. LMAO. I was like whatttt, are you kidding me? If that were me holding the cup or anyone else who was there, he would've DEFINITELY checked our cups. Why? Because we are MINORITIES. I was like wow Kemo, it's all because you are white. That was pretty entertaining, mmmm. As we're going downstairs and approaching the street, there are a bunch of cop cars outside along with people. My friend Cristal shows up last minute. We all walked the opposite direction, trying to figure out what we were gonna do next. At 3am, we were on the corner trying to figure out what we were going to do. I wanted to just go home. We were there for like 20-30 minutes then we meet up with my cousin, Marvin and all his amigos. My cousin is the funniest guy everrrr, lol. His friend, Chris, had a bouquet of flowers and i forgot why. We hopped on two separate cabs to another party and saw a few of my friends there. It was pumping, I thought yes my night did not go to waste and boom. Needless to say, that get-together ended 10 minutes after I got there because the cops were coming. LOL. What a night. So we all walked to Sheila's house, luckily, she lives close by from where we were. Me and my hubby, my babe, the love of my life walked behind everyone, hand-in-hand. We stayed behind because he took a picture of me =); he's the greatest guy ever. I'll post up a blog, exclusively dedicated to him. Stay posted. We all went to Sheila's and made some sweet, good food, cracked jokes, and drank a bit. It turned out to be a great night afterall.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Safe Within Our Love

How did this miracle happen
That we're so very blessed, So close…and more contented, Than I ever would have guessed. I never thought that I Could spend each precious minute With just one special person And find happiness within it. I've learned so much from you About loving, sharing, giving; I know if I hadn't met you, I wouldn't be really living. We're facing life together; We're handling joy and sorrow; I'm glad you're on my side, whatever comes tomorrow. You're my perfect partner, Sweet lover, trusted friend. LEAVE SOME COMMENTS, TALK TO ME!

50 Romantic Things To Do For Your Boyfriend/Girlfriend

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1. Watch the sunset together. 2. Whisper to each other. 3. Cook for each other. 4. Walk in the rain. 5. Hold hands 6. Buy gifts for each other. 7. Roses. 8. Find out their favorite cologne/perfume and wear it every time you're together. 9. Go for a long walk down the beach at midnight. 10. Write poetry for each other. 11. Hugs are the universal medicine. 12. Say only when you mean it and make sure they know you mean it. 13. Give random gifts of flowers/candy/poetry etc. 14. Tell her that she's the only girl you ever want. Don't lie! 15. Spend every second possible together. 16. Look into each other's eyes. 17. Very lightly push up her chin, look into her eyes, tell her you love her, and kiss her lightly. 18. When in public, only flirt with each other. 19. Put love notes in their pockets when they aren't looking. 20. Buy her a ring. 21. Sing to each other. 22. Always hold her around her hips/sides. 23. Take her to dinner and do the dinner for two deal. 24. Spaghetti? 25. Hold her hand, stare into her eyes, kiss her hand and then put it over your heart. 26. Dance together. 27. I love the way a girl looks right after she's fallen asleep with her head in my lap. 28. Do cute things like write I love you in a note so that they have to look in a mirror to read it. 29. Make excuses to call them every 5 minutes. 30. Even if you are really busy doing something, go out of your way to call and say I love you. 31. Call from your vacation spot to tell them you were thinking about them. 32. Remember your dreams and tell her about them. 33. P.D.A 34. Tell each other your most sacred secrets/fears. 35. Be Prince Charming to her parents. 36. Brush her hair out of her face for her. 37. Hang out with his/her friends. 38. Go to church/pray/worship together. 39. Take her to see a romantic movie and remember the parts she liked. 40. Learn from each other and don't make the same mistake twice. 41. Describe the joy you feel just to be with him/her. 42. Make sacrifices for each other. 43. Really love each other, or don't stay together. 44. Let there never be a second during any given day that you aren't thinking about them, and make sure they know it. 45. Love yourself before you love anyone else. 46. Learn to say sweet things in foreign languages. 47. Dedicate songs to them on the radio. 48. Fall asleep on the phone with each other. 49. Stand up for them when someone talks trash. 50. Never forget the kiss goodnight and always remember to say, "Sweet dreams."
Thursday, May 7, 2009

I Wish....

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I'm sitting here on my computer, I haven't written on my blog for a while now. I always write, it is something i LOVE with all my heart! I wish life were less complicated right now, things aren't looking quite well as I would expect it to be. I am currently out of a J-O-B like millions of other people dealing with these tough times in this recession. I don't know how this government expects people to make ends meet, it's tough out there. I can't be at home as much as I would like, on top of that traveling back and forth between New York and New Jersey can be unbearable and it drives me nuts, really. In life, you have to make sacrifices in order to progress and my sacrifice is not being at home in my own room, in my own space with my parents. There is not place like home! I wish I was more at peace with life, I'm happy with some aspects of my life like having my great family, my close few friends, and my amazing boyfriend: they really make life worthwhile and easier to cope with. Don't get me wrong, life is beautiful and I love it, no one said it was going to be easy, it comes to show how determined and how strong and motivated you are to reach your utmost abilities and conquer your dreams and where you wanna be by the time I'm 25. But one thing I never lose, no matter how frustrating and arghh things get, is HOPE and FAITH. I truly do believe in God and I know that he is gonna give me a break some day soon. I'm going to be a successful model actress and writer. I love the arts, it is so amazingggg, nothing but love! Like emotionally, I don't and haven't been feeling well. I feel lousy and low like I am not worthy of anything. I wish my life would be 1000 times better in terms of career and residence situation, but I am sorta of content with what I have and I have to appreciate that because there are so many people out there who have worst than me and have nothing. I have an AMAZING boyfriend named Anthony. He really is a great person, I see myself in him in so many ways and his sparkly eyes have a wonderful story to tellm they say so much. I see myself being with him for the rest of my life. He is truly my gift from GOD. There aren't words to explain how he makes me feel, how I feel about him, as cliche as it sounds. He makes everything more alleviating!! On a brighter note, I worked out today, I'm maintaining my shape and eating well. I should be signed to a major modeling agency in the city pretty soon (I hope so). My parents arranged a family meeting for this Friday, I've been invited to so many places for Saturday, and Mother's Day is on Sunday, AHHHHHHHHHH! I'm gonna go insane, being on a budget is not easy at all and on top of the fact that I paid for my frigging' phone bill. (i love my BLACKBERRY tho!) i don't know what I'm gonna do, but hey I got 2 interviews and I had a photo shoot, kudos for me! :) I am writing a love letter to my gorgeous other half, it relaxes and soothes my soul! LORD, thank you for sending him to me! And thank you for having me here on Earth, you have given me great people to coexist with! i love them all! I'm listening to soft, serene music... I hope I get well soon....Goodnight world. ~Rafaelina
Friday, April 3, 2009

Untold And Unforeseen

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Something That Was Written A Long Time Ago. I Decided To Post It. If I could look into the future and see what it holds for both you and I, I know it wouldn't be a fantasy world of no worries or problems, we know, that would be a lie. Because life without obstacles would make everything simple and plain, Who wants to live in a world where everyone and everything is all the same? Our trials and tribulations will help us to be and do our very best, Not to repeat but to teach us to get stress and frustration off our chest. Our victories will remind us that we can overcome and continue, as we travel down life's two way street, leaving and learning a bit of knowledge with everyone we meet. There will be times when there is just too much to take and you start to shed a tear, No need to worry, I will be right there to calm your fear. Our emotions, thoughts, and the things we say, Are part of this construction that paves our way. To what kind of future we will make, After all it is fifty-fifty, give and take. Our bodies are our armor and we must take great care, It is our means of mobility to take us from here to there. Although our spirit will survive no matter if we live or lay our heads to final rest, But we must not take anything for granted or think of ourselves any less. What I see in the future for both you and I, I can't see or say for sure but we can make it what we want if we only try. It's a complicated thing when you think about life and what it may hold, Whether or not you're going to live until you are old. But things like that shouldn't matter right now, at this present time, What matters at this point, in this life is that, I am yours and you are mine.