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Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
Tuesday, October 20, 2009

This Sickening Machine

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You are my soul, my love in a circle, my love in a low
the devil in a hole,

Speak to me, breathe me, digg me from this machine

See, there's this bullshit called Love.

You know what it does? It kills people, like you and me
This extra emotional machine.

Fuck this machine, let's fuck this machine,
Let's find the backdoor to this drowsy sickening memory.
Monday, August 3, 2009

Hardships of Love

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Many people might think, you're dumb for staying with him/her, why are you putting yourself through that? Don't be a punk, blah blah blah. Have you ever thought why and how couples that stay together for 30 years, 50 years, 60 years? Because they have been through it all together, through thick and thin, and every obstacle that have presented itself. Forgiveness, effort, and understanding are key. Love doesn't suck, people suck. People cause love to stink. Love is beautiful! Love requires much patience and forgiveness and strength. Love is everything, it has everything you can possibly think of. Soulmates aren't perfect, nobody is. Be prepared for the Hardships of Love, the package that comes along with it. It gets bumpy, but it's all worth it when you have your soulmate by your side. It has to work, you got to make it work. When is enough enough? NEVER, not when it comes to your other soul. Be ready.
Thursday, July 30, 2009

Life and Love

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Love is bothering me because you have to deal with a lot of bullshit. Love is filled with everything, love is filled even with the things that you don't like. Love, it is filled with lies, it is filled with hurt, it is filled with beauty. It is filled with everything you can imagine. We have to prepare ourselves for love: we are prepared for it and simultaneously we are not. Human individuals are too immature for love due to so many aspects of life being automatically involved such as feelings, thoughts, and emotions. It is inevitable because nothing is perfect. Sometimes I wish love were perfect, sometimes I wish life was perfect. Love is a beautiful thing, a beautiful gift, but it hurts sooo much. It makes people not want to get involved with it. Either way, we as the human individuals that we are, seek love. Love is life, love is part of life. I hate it, I hate it!
Tuesday, July 28, 2009

The Feeling of Vexation

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Annoyance, vexation, bothered: I hate this feeling. It's one of the worse feelings I have to experienced. Feeling bothered, feeling annoyed, having that "Leave me alone, I don't care" feeling makes me want to get away from everyone and have that sense of peace and quiet. It's just one of those days when you want to be alone and not talk to anyone. Just breathing. . .
Saturday, July 11, 2009

What is LOVE?

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Love is my favorite topic to speak and write about. It's universal and beautiful! My absolute most preferred quote about love is from the Bible, it goes like this: "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I though like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but poor refelection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. And now these three remain: faith, hope, and love. But the greatest of these is love" ~1 Corinthians 13:4-13 Love makes the world go 'round. It is a beautiful, surreal feeling that nobody is quite ready to face in life, but it is something we all yearn for and it is something we all desire to have to completely satisfy our happiness to its fullest potential. Love is a gift from GOD. I never knew I could be so happy, I never knew I'd be so secure and so in love because of his love, life has a brand new meaning. It's gonna be a brighter day. I love how weird me and him are. I may complain at timea and think, but that's us, it's life. I'M YOUR EVERYTHING, YOU'RE MY EVERYTHING! When two people love each other, they are each other everything, no matter what! Ride or die 'till the end of time. We get each other, we are different yet similar at the same time. We compliment each other very well. Nobody understands, i LOVE us. Anthony Damiani and Rafaelina Siri One of my quotes is: "I will serenade you, take you to the depths of my soul, show you what is real" ~Rafaelina Siri I'm glad that I have geniune feelings and that I feel, reminds me that I am human. Love is such a magical feeling, the best feeling a human being could ever experience. It makes the world a better place, it makes people greater, filled with happiness. I love being in love and being loved in return by the greatest person I know, Our love is oure and sincere, He's my soulmate, the man I am going to spend the rest of my life with. That is something I know for sure, as he too knows. GOD has blessed me with his love and companionship, we love one other! And this is something that will never, ever change. Love is endless, love is GOD, love can't be described. It's an immense feeling you feel for someone else! I thank GOD everyday for creating this beauty. I am a true hopeless romantic. Love keeps me going as the days go by, my ultimate inspiration. He is my ultimate inspiration, when you know that someone is meant for you, you'll know!!! There are times I still can't believe I have found someone worthwhile, my soulmate. It's so magical and surreal. I remember when I would always pray to God about love. As a child, I would always wonder where my soulmate lived. California? Japan? I would always wonder what he was up to and who he was. Strangely, I was never the kind of little girl to plan her wedding and her children's names. I never sat down and planned it. Of course, I thought of it, but it never occurred to me. I have been hurt by love, just like everyone else, heck I almost gave up on it. There were times when I even thought that love wasn't meant or made for me, as much as I tried to make myself believe that, I just couldn't. For I knew that it was going to find me. LOVE FINDS YOU UNEXPECTEDLY, EVEN WHEN YOU DON'T WANT IT TO FIND YOU.
Saturday, June 27, 2009

The Best Candy, SNICKERS!

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I am in LOVE with Snickers! It is truly the best candy in the world. It's taste is amazing, makes you just wanna devour that thing. I have not tasted this great thing in a pretty long time, I kinda miss it. Sorry Snickers, but I am eating very healthy and moderately now. Taste you soon! P.S. You'll be a GREAT surprise and random gift, if you were accompanied with a beautiful set of a dozen PINK roses!

Heartbroken Hearts & Blabbing 101

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Having your heart broken and messed with is not one of the best feelings in the world. It hurts so much, it is something that every human being has to experience in this lifetime. I had to go through this heartache, you had to go through it, and so will everyone else. It is inevitable. Sometimes, it even makes you want to stop believing in love, perhaps it even makes you want to wish that it didn't exist, but without love there is no life. There are different kinds of love: love for a friend, love for a family member, love for a neighbor, love for life, love for an object. The primary kind of love that us human individuals emphasis our existence on is: ROMANTIC LOVE WITH THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE. Isn't that the best kind of love? I have a few girlfriends who are experiencing heartbreak at the moment. It affects me seeing them this way and in a sense it makes me angry because I have experienced this When your heart is broken, all you can think about is how crappy and hurt you feel, speaking about it as much as you can to your friends, seeking advice(hence the added word blabbing in the title). Love hurts, love is pain, love is beautiful, love is everything, love is something we all look for, whether we intentionally are or not. My girlfriends ask me for advice and I give it to them, I'm pretty good with giving advice. I give them my realistic and sensitive comapassionate advice, but then again they sometimes don't take my advice into consideration. It's like why even bother asking for it, if you're going to listen to me. The real reason is because they do not wanna accept reality! Of course, they don't, they're hurt! Love is heaven, this tingly butterfly effect you feel inside. It feels wonderful! This feeling is motivating, this feeling is inspiring, this feeling is unexplainable. I'll continue writing about love in my next blog. If they're not gonna listen to me, stop BLABBING! My ears hurt from all the blabbing and repetition of the same exact thing. It vexs the living crap out of me, it seriously frustrates me more than this recession we currently are dealing with. If they're not gonna listen to me, get a journal or better yet a blog! Like this one, it really works wonders for the soul.
Monday, June 22, 2009

Only You...

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A lot of people know the surface side of me, the side they see while I'm working or just going through the day... But there's another side of me - an inside - that people never see. It's a part that's full of a thousand thoughts; a part that embraces love and cherishes friendship, a part that understands without need for words, a part that has yearnings and desires and prayers. The inside of me has so many moods that the outside never shows. For once in my life, though . . . I trust someone implicitly and I care about someone in a totally understand way. I feel like it's okay to let that someone in, to let them see me emotionally and physically as naturally and as naked as I can be. I have given myself to you and told you things that I've never told another soul . . . You are the one person who has seen me trembling and as fearful as an injured bird; you are the one person I always want to take with me when I feel exhilarated and my spirits are soaring. I trust you with my secrets, and you know that you can trust me with yours. This sharing . . .this special sharing . . . is one of the nicest dimensions my life has ever known.

A Special Chance

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You and I took a special chance the first time we met... we both knew enough of love, and life, to understand that two people don't fall in love, they grow into it, slowly - and we'd both been hurt before by feelings that seemed too easily lost... but there was something between us from the beginning, a unique harmony that made us take that special chance... You and I took a special chance the first time we argued... after feeling hurt and sad, and both of us trying to apologize and the same time for disagreeing over such a small matter, we knew that our relationship was worth more... than anything that might come between us, and we knew that after that first time that what we had together would see us through the hard times and make us better appreciate the good, because we took that special chance... You and I took a special chance the first time we said, "I love you"... for we knew that we would share stormy as well as sunny times, laughter and tears, some dreams that would come beautifully true, and others that would fade in our memories - and we knew in our hearts that our love deserved all the effort we could make to fulfill our life together... for we took that special chance... and found a very special love.
Friday, June 19, 2009

Something To Share With The Ladies...

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If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition or spirit to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then hell no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better (try three). The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later. You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are. He is a man, nothing more nothing less. Never let a man define who you are. NEVER BORROW SOMEONE ELSE'S MAN. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you. A man will only treat you the way you allow him to treat you. All men are not dogs. You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is two way street. You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship. You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you... a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals... look for someone complimentary...not supplementary. Dating is fun... even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right. Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and your always readily available to him- he takes it for granted. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need. Keep him in your radar but get to know others. Share this with other ladies..... You'll make someone smile, another rethink her choices, and another woman prepare. They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Safe Within Our Love

How did this miracle happen
That we're so very blessed, So close…and more contented, Than I ever would have guessed. I never thought that I Could spend each precious minute With just one special person And find happiness within it. I've learned so much from you About loving, sharing, giving; I know if I hadn't met you, I wouldn't be really living. We're facing life together; We're handling joy and sorrow; I'm glad you're on my side, whatever comes tomorrow. You're my perfect partner, Sweet lover, trusted friend. LEAVE SOME COMMENTS, TALK TO ME!

50 Romantic Things To Do For Your Boyfriend/Girlfriend

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1. Watch the sunset together. 2. Whisper to each other. 3. Cook for each other. 4. Walk in the rain. 5. Hold hands 6. Buy gifts for each other. 7. Roses. 8. Find out their favorite cologne/perfume and wear it every time you're together. 9. Go for a long walk down the beach at midnight. 10. Write poetry for each other. 11. Hugs are the universal medicine. 12. Say only when you mean it and make sure they know you mean it. 13. Give random gifts of flowers/candy/poetry etc. 14. Tell her that she's the only girl you ever want. Don't lie! 15. Spend every second possible together. 16. Look into each other's eyes. 17. Very lightly push up her chin, look into her eyes, tell her you love her, and kiss her lightly. 18. When in public, only flirt with each other. 19. Put love notes in their pockets when they aren't looking. 20. Buy her a ring. 21. Sing to each other. 22. Always hold her around her hips/sides. 23. Take her to dinner and do the dinner for two deal. 24. Spaghetti? 25. Hold her hand, stare into her eyes, kiss her hand and then put it over your heart. 26. Dance together. 27. I love the way a girl looks right after she's fallen asleep with her head in my lap. 28. Do cute things like write I love you in a note so that they have to look in a mirror to read it. 29. Make excuses to call them every 5 minutes. 30. Even if you are really busy doing something, go out of your way to call and say I love you. 31. Call from your vacation spot to tell them you were thinking about them. 32. Remember your dreams and tell her about them. 33. P.D.A 34. Tell each other your most sacred secrets/fears. 35. Be Prince Charming to her parents. 36. Brush her hair out of her face for her. 37. Hang out with his/her friends. 38. Go to church/pray/worship together. 39. Take her to see a romantic movie and remember the parts she liked. 40. Learn from each other and don't make the same mistake twice. 41. Describe the joy you feel just to be with him/her. 42. Make sacrifices for each other. 43. Really love each other, or don't stay together. 44. Let there never be a second during any given day that you aren't thinking about them, and make sure they know it. 45. Love yourself before you love anyone else. 46. Learn to say sweet things in foreign languages. 47. Dedicate songs to them on the radio. 48. Fall asleep on the phone with each other. 49. Stand up for them when someone talks trash. 50. Never forget the kiss goodnight and always remember to say, "Sweet dreams."
Friday, April 3, 2009

Untold And Unforeseen

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Something That Was Written A Long Time Ago. I Decided To Post It. If I could look into the future and see what it holds for both you and I, I know it wouldn't be a fantasy world of no worries or problems, we know, that would be a lie. Because life without obstacles would make everything simple and plain, Who wants to live in a world where everyone and everything is all the same? Our trials and tribulations will help us to be and do our very best, Not to repeat but to teach us to get stress and frustration off our chest. Our victories will remind us that we can overcome and continue, as we travel down life's two way street, leaving and learning a bit of knowledge with everyone we meet. There will be times when there is just too much to take and you start to shed a tear, No need to worry, I will be right there to calm your fear. Our emotions, thoughts, and the things we say, Are part of this construction that paves our way. To what kind of future we will make, After all it is fifty-fifty, give and take. Our bodies are our armor and we must take great care, It is our means of mobility to take us from here to there. Although our spirit will survive no matter if we live or lay our heads to final rest, But we must not take anything for granted or think of ourselves any less. What I see in the future for both you and I, I can't see or say for sure but we can make it what we want if we only try. It's a complicated thing when you think about life and what it may hold, Whether or not you're going to live until you are old. But things like that shouldn't matter right now, at this present time, What matters at this point, in this life is that, I am yours and you are mine.
Monday, February 2, 2009

Look Within

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There is so much beauty in,
This wondrous blue rose.
If only we could capture it,
Within our very souls.
If we could take its beauty,
And apply the glow within,
Search a little deeper,
In the soul beneath our skin.
Take what it does stand for,
And shed its love abroad.
Don't hide the glow within you,
But share the love of God.
You know you can't touch beauty
Without it rubbing off on you,
And spreading it to others
In the kindness that you do.
There lies within each one of us,
The beauty like this rose,
When it's used in touching others,
Then its beauty overflows.
Sunday, February 1, 2009

All I See Is You

I remember us,the way we used to be,
I'd hold you in my arms,your smile so sweet to me,
But now when I see you,
you look right through me,
I feel so alone now,
but when I close my eyes...
...All I see is you.
The love we used to share,
gone up in whirl winds,
will I ever love,
or ever live again,
I am tired of crying,
and I am done trying,
To remember all about you,
but when I close my eyes...
...All I see is you.
All the love I am sending,
the memories I won't sell,
I know there must be an ending,
to the story I will tell,
I dream only of your love,
and happiness in life,
I try not to think of you,
but when I close my eyes...
...All I see is you.
Thursday, January 22, 2009

Six Silent Tears

Last night before I went to bed
Thoughts of you filled my head
Though I have not cried this way in many years
Onto my pillow fell six silent tears
The first was for your smile that I miss
And your tender lips I long to kiss
The second was for your angle face
And thoughts of your loving embrace
The third came as no surprise
As I thought of your beautiful eyes
The fourth came rolling
Instead of my pillow, it should have been you I was holding
The fifth came for one reason alone
I felt my love for you wasn't fully shown
I really love and miss you my dear
And there just fell the sixth silent tear.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009

What Am I To Do?

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I haven't done one of these in a really long time. I've been feeling the need to write. Lately, things haven't been how I want them to be in general, but hey, not everything is how we want them to be. I'm feeling so many different emotions right now, that I don't even know what to write. I'm hurt. My heart hurts, my soul hurts, my whole body hurts. I feel like incomplete, like a part of me is missing. I just wanna fly away, a place where I can be at peace with myself and with how my life is. This is not how I want things to be. It feels like nothing ever gets better. There is so much of myself that I have yet to discover, I know I am stronger than I believe at times and I know things will get better with how things are. I hope things get better with my life: my family, my friends, my career, and with love. Things have not been good. I hope to become more bonded with my family and be more open towards them. I hope to aim for all that I dream of. I hope to be able to show all the love I have without being afraid. It's a risk I must take. I hope to become a stronger person, I hope to be able to open up my heart without feeling afraid of pain, hurt, and suffering; that is what life is about, about learning and being a human being.
I know all of these things, but it is sooo hard for me to say how I feel at times. The words are there, but they do come out, fear takes over me, like I freeze and so many questions begin to swirl in my mind. It's nothing personal to anyone, it's not that I am not honest, it's not that I'm a coward, it's none of that, it's just that it's hard to trust someone with your innermost thoughts and feelings. Being vulnerable to someone, in someone's eyes, is a scary thing because you're risking your heart and you're risking getting hurt. I feel that if someone knows too much about you, it can ruin things, perhaps the interest will go away. It's brave to demonstrate yourself all out there. I cry about it, I cry that I can't say how I feel and what I am feeling. It hurts me, it's been affecting me for years. Sometimes, I feel like I am going to end up alone without anyone because I tend to push people away from me. I don't do it intentionally, it is how it is. It's a wall I've had up, and now I have to bring it down. I have to let it all out and be free. I know I have to work on that part of me, I try soooo hard, I need to let go of all the hurt from people in my life. That is the only way I'll reach complete happiness. I know I can do it. This is one of the reasons I love writing so much.
I hope to become the best person I can be, more of who I am, but better. You live and you learn, that is what we're for. It's me and G O D, he's going to help me. I promised myself I would not cry, but I am human. It's a sign of bravery and strength to tear. Tears are beautiful, where do they come from? Today I lost a beautiful part of me, it hurts sooo bad, but I pray that things will be alright and that I'll be able to get through this. I have learned soo much. I don't think I'll be to love another, I don't think I'm supposed to. I must admit, I honestly do not how I am going to make it. Love conquers all?
I am alone now, more alone than ever before. Like the saying goes, "We're born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we're not alone", I guess that saying is true. I don't know if I can handle it, but I hope to overcome my pain as the days go by. God knows what's best for me, doesn't he? This is a time where I have to be strong for myself, especially for myself. I can't let myself get down. I've come to accept how things are, who I am, and what I am here for. Good days bring happiness and bad days bring experience, both are essential to life.
~Rafaelina Siri
Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Rose of Desire

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As I plant a seed into the soil, the soil of my unpredictable life.
Hoping for each seed to blossom throughout the darken night.
Without the knowledge of knowing what each seed will form into...
But a rose I wish upon a star for this precious seed to be.
I will pray so my rose will be a rose filled with love and beauty,
With Gracefulness and Charm.
A rose that would be viewed as a quantum characteristic that accounts
for the existence of love.
A while It took to search for the perfect seed, till I found the one that spoke the
language of love back to me.
The seed of desire that will blossom into,
A perfect love for me to call my own.
The petals on that rose,
Will be the petals that present my life,
such a life I will live, for all I long for is to,
find the perfect love to call my own...
Such beauty, such desire,
Such sweet scent I want you to hold proudly.
I will not fear to see what you might become,
For I shall not walk away I will be here waiting for you.
You are my beauty.
You are my path.
You are the rose I will water,
If you promise to stay for a while.
Many roses their petals fall out of their place But I am hoping yours will always be invigorating.
I hope you won't have to say good-bye soon,
For I will hold a promise tonight to watch you grow and to admire your beauty as,
You blossom through this quiet and lonely night.
I will listen carefully and watch your sweet body,
Grow with mine.
I will tell you stories about the nights I spent,
Being lonely.
I will tell you about how beautiful the past nights used to be when I gently fell asleep under the shimmering stars.
I will tell you about the feeling of being loved a lifetime ago,
and I promise to show you my heavenly garden as soon,
As you decide its me who you want to see on to morrow.
But tonight I am here to guide you and I am here to protect you...
My Rose I wish you would become, for tonight my being is yours to keep...
Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Nostalgia

08.09.06 "I Began Rhyminq This Poem In My Mind.I Had To Write It Down Because I Liked It..It's Cool...I Always Loved Writinq It Has Always Been In Me..But This Poem Doesn't Apply To Me...Thnx." Nostalgia I'm Longing For Something That Was So Long Ago. It's So Far Away From What I Know. I'm Feeling This Emotion That Sturs So Much Pain. What Should I Do? I Feel So Derranged. My Heart Is My Guide I'm Listening To It I Hope It Finds My True Other Significant. Times Goes By Day By Day Some Things Change And Some Remain. Nostlagia Is What I'm Feeling What Can I Do? This Is What I'm Seeing As I'm Dreaming Of You.
Friday, May 5, 2006

Imperalizing My Mind

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This was written a while ago and I've been too busy and too lazy to post it up..lol......But I'm Doing So now~!...Enjoy! This was originally written on Saturday,April 1,2006 Imperializing My Mind Your love is imperializing my being. What are you doing to my soul,oh boy? I love you very much. I'm always thinking of you,I can't help it. You picked me up when I was down. We were like two persond molded into one. It's great,it was great,and it will always be great. I can't help feeling blue when I see you, I shake,I tremble when I hear your voice. It's just there and it's still strong. I'm loving you from far away. I can't stand to see someone else loving you, but I'm juts dealing with it. Love isn't a game,it's real. Love shouldn't be given up so easily. It should be faught for because it's an amazing feeling,an unexplainable one. But who are you? I don't even know who you are anymore. What do you feel? What are your feelings? Do you still love me? Was our love true? Is it still there? Did it fade? Save me the pain please,I'd rather not know, It'll give me so much more. I will always remember you. You produce tears in my eyes and it's just part of love. Bye Bye My Sweet Sweet Love. Your love will always be a piece of me. It makes me,me. I Love You, Now Always And Forever! I'm letting go now. I really don't want to, but I have to. Your love will always, will never stop Imperializing My Mind.