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Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Everytime

Posted in by Rafaelina Siri | Edit
.:Everytime:. Something I Wrote In My Journal Last Week......Enjoy!! Everytime I See You, I Can't Help But Feel Inside, The Pleasure Of Beinq With You  And Not Havinq To Decide. My Lips Can't Help But Smile As I  Have You Here By My Side. Sometimes When I Don't See You, My Eyes Seem To Cry. My Body Yearns For Yours It  Makes Me Feel Protected  Sort Of Like A Ride, I Wanna Feel Safe  As You Kiss Me All The Time. We'll Become Better People, We Will Love and Grow. You Feel The Same Way I Do  I Know Because You Let It Show. Everytime We See One Another, We Both Let It Glow, Really Beautiful, Nice And Slow. ~Miss Crazy Beautiful~
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Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Lack Of Appreciation

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I Decided To Say This.... It's Been Disturbinq Me.... It's Better To Say It Then Nothinq At All...Right?? First Of All...I'm Not Perfect..... I Have Said And Done Some Harshful Thinqs To One Friend That I Love And Care About Still....And Now What Do I Have?...Nothinq....Their Friendship Is Out The Door. I Know It Seems That I Have Come Across As Shallow And Immature And Confused And Whatnot...But I'm Really Not.... I Admit My Mistakes And Wronqdoinqs Because It's The Right Thinq To Do Always.....I'm Still The Same Sweet Person But I Don't Think They See That....Hey I Can't Blame Them....I'm Not An Asshole I Swear I'm Not...What A Great Friend This Person Was...Always There For Me And I Blew It.... I Say Mean Thinqs Out Of Pure Anger.....I Feel Like A Monster For All That I Said And Done..... This Person Sad Some Horrible Things To Me Like Wowwww I Can't Believe This Is Cominq Out Of Their Mouth Even Though I Was Wrong They Should've Never Said That....Two Wronqs Don't Make A Right. I Am Determined Tho To Get Their Forgiveness One Day But I Also Know That Forgiving Is A Very Difficult Thing To Do....Since It Involves Feelings And I Really Did Hurt This Person's Feelinqs....This Has Been On My Mind For A Very Long Time Now.People Make Mistakes People Can Change For The Better And Really Learn From Them Seriously.... I Know I Have Learned. And This One Other Person That Was Great.. That I've Been Through Crap And Drama With....But When I Think About It....It Should've Never Went The Way It Did....Words And Actions Were Thrown Back And Forth Which Of Course Didn't Make The Situation Any Better At All Whatsoever...The Thinqs They Did Were Misunderstood By Me And The Things I Did Were Misunderstood To Them....All I Have Are Good Times Recorded In My Mind And The Bad Too But Those Things I've Let Go Of Already....I Would've Loved For Everythinq To Become Better But I Didn't Allow It To Happen Because I Just Wouldn't Seem To Forget Some Hurtful Thinqs....It Was Hard To.You Know?....I Wish We Both Would've Appreciated Each Other More.....Maybe One Day Everything Will Be Okay.... As Much As I Would Like To Take Words Back....I Can't.... Everything Does Happen For A Reason...I Say... There's A Sweet And Mean Side Inside Everyone.....What Can I Do??....... I Want Things To Be Back To Normal With These People....But Sometimes Things Might Never Be The Same Ever Again...Who Knows?? It Can Happen... There's Always Hope Somethinq I Never Lost.......Just Wanted To Say That.... But When Will It Be Okay For Me To Say Something??? Will It Ever??? Hopefully.
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Sunday, September 10, 2006

Life Sucks

Posted in by Rafaelina Siri | Edit

This Is The First Time That I Don't Post Up A Poem On One Of Blogs..This Is What I'm Feeling Right At This Moment && It Fucking Sucks. :(

I Feel So Out Of Place In This World...I Feel So Alone Sometimes It's Like What Do I Do?? I'm Afraid Of Endinq Up Alone And Miserable Like The Underground Man. Nothing Is Going My Way...I Really Feel Like Giving Up On Life And Be A Bum Or Something...But I Know That Ain't The Right Thing For Me...I Cry And Cry Myself To Sleep Feeling Like A Worthless Piece Of Shit....I Have No Motivation...No Positiveness From Anyone...I Feel Like I Have No Control Like If I Lost My Control Over Life....I Gotta Stay Up!! I Gotta Make It! I'm Not The Type To Give Up Easily On Things That I Desire For And Care For...But Damn It Can Be Hard...There Are All These Obstacles That I Feel Are Stopping Me From Acheiving My Goals My Wants My Desires...Ugh!!! I Know Everything Happens For A Reason....I Cry!! Like The Human That I Am.....I Look Back At My Life I Stop And Think Like Damnn Why Didn't These People Stay In My Life?? Like My Grandparents And A Couple Of Old Friends.....I Was Full Of Happiness With Them..Especially My Old Folks..They Stood By Me Through Thick And Thin No Matter What Stupidities I Committed....Why?? Because They Loved Me And They Showed It To Me Each And Everyday....I Miss Them So Much!! **A Literal Tear That I'm Crying Right Now.** I Was Stronger Then Than Now......Why Do Things Happen That I Don't Like?? What Did I Do To Deserve Evil Things From People??....I Feel Like Nobody Gives A Fuck About Me....My Feelings Are Blahhhh To Them.....I Hope To Find My Happiness Again Because I'm Not Happy Where I'm At This Point.....I Hate My Life! And I Hate Talking About It...But I'm Doing So Anyway.....I'm Not Perfect Things Happen To Me All The Time....&& I Can't Take It Anymore...The World Is All Types Of Fucked Up....I Wish I Didn't Exist Sometimes To Save All The Pain From Happening.....But I'm Here For A Reason(s) That's Why I'm Still Alive...To Make Something Out Of Myself And I'm Gonna Try With All Of Me To Change My Life To Where I Wanna Be.......Even If Nobody Understands. I Looked Up The Word "Love" To See What It Means And This Is What I Found: love. –noun  ..1. a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.  ..2. a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.  ..3. sexual passion or desire.  ..4. a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person; sweetheart.  ..5. (used in direct address as a term of endearment, affection, or the like): Would you like to see a movie, love?  ..6. a love affair; an intensely amorous incident; amour.  ..7. sexual intercourse; copulation.  ..8. (initial capital letter) a personification of sexual affection, as Eros or Cupid.  ..9. affectionate concern for the well-being of others: the love of one's neighbor.  ..10. strong predilection, enthusiasm, or liking for anything: her love of books.  ..11. the object or thing so liked: The theater was her great love.  ..12. the benevolent affection of God for His creatures, or the reverent affection due from them to God.  ..13. Chiefly Tennis. a score of zero; nothing.  ..14. a word formerly used in communications to represent the letter L.  –verb (used with object)  ..15. to have love or affection for: All her pupils love her.  ..16. to have a profoundly tender, passionate affection for (another person).  ..17. to have a strong liking for; take great pleasure in: to love music.  ..18. to need or require; benefit greatly from: Plants love sunlight.  ..19. to embrace and kiss (someone), as a lover.  ..20. to have sexual intercourse with.  ..21. to have love or affection for another person; be in love. 
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Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Nostalgia

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08.09.06 "I Began Rhyminq This Poem In My Mind.I Had To Write It Down Because I Liked It..It's Cool...I Always Loved Writinq It Has Always Been In Me..But This Poem Doesn't Apply To Me...Thnx." Nostalgia I'm Longing For Something That Was So Long Ago. It's So Far Away From What I Know. I'm Feeling This Emotion That Sturs So Much Pain. What Should I Do? I Feel So Derranged. My Heart Is My Guide I'm Listening To It I Hope It Finds My True Other Significant. Times Goes By Day By Day Some Things Change And Some Remain. Nostlagia Is What I'm Feeling What Can I Do? This Is What I'm Seeing As I'm Dreaming Of You.
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Tuesday, August 1, 2006

Never A Moment With You I'll Regret

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"And Another Cool Old One It's Nice :)"~Lina Never A Moment With You I'll Regret For the one who holds my heart Who brings it great joy then tears it apart Who can turn my face from a frown to a smile And turn it around with his smooth, suave style. If it's better to love then to not love at all I choose not to love cuz for you I did fall An emotional ride that brings so much pain Tears mixed with fire,thunder and rain I stand here alone as I watch you leave And I know for a moment for you  I will grieve. Sure they'll be others and me you'll forget But never a moment with you I'll regret.
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Wednesday, July 5, 2006

Thoughts Of The Night

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"I Feel Like Shít I'm So Sick Right Now With Them Chest Pains I'm Having From My Asthma.It's Bad And It Sucks.So I'm Here Chillinq In My Room Watchinq Tv Relaxing Recommendations From The Doctor...I Need Another Vacation..lolz"   Thoughts Of The Night Lay Here Beside Me, Love And Bless Me With Your Closeness. Tell Me About All Your Hopes And Dreams. Shower Me With Your Fantasies. Embrace Me With Your Passion. Let Me Hear Your Whispers Of Love Felt So Deeply. Let Me Hear Your Heart Beating. Let Me Be The Sky  That Awaits Your Presence. Let Me Be The Stars That Brighten Your Nights. Let Me Be The Clouds That Are So Breathless. Let Me Be The Wind That Brings You Harmony  From Within. Let Me Lay Here Beside You Always. Let Me Be The Comfort That You Need. Kissing You Softly As You Do The Same To Me. Holding You Here  In My Arms As We  Think About Life's  Many Complexities. Feeling The Warmth Of Your Feathered Soft Skin. Let Me Live In Your Heart And Die In Your Eyes, As You Let Me Love You. These Are My Thoughts Of The Night.
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Thursday, June 29, 2006

The Initiation Of A New Chapter

Posted in by Rafaelina Siri | Edit
 "A New Life Is Coming Ughhh What A Weird Feeling I Don't Wanna Let Go." ~Lina~   The Initiation Of A New Chapter
Should I Call This A New Life? Life Changes Sometimes  For The Better. There Are Some Things In Your Old Chapter You Can't Let Go Of. They Are Still There. So What Do You Do? Who Am I Kidding? You Can't Really Do Much. There Are Situations In Life That Influence Your Character. That Are Always Going To Be There. Anytime. All The Time. Always. Shouldn't I Be Happy That My Life Is Transforming? I Know I Should Right? But I'm Kinda Not. I Haven't Handled Some Things, But I Gotta Keep On Moving. I Hope Good Things  Come My Way And I Know They Are. I Hope To Be A Bit Happier And Meet A Couple Of People Here And There. Explore What's Out There The Unknown To Me. Meet Someone Who Loves Me With All Their Heart, Body,And Soul. Who Appreciates Me And All My Imperfections. Someone Who Will  Be There, A Shoulder To Lean On. Life Is Hectic. Sometimes You Just Feel Like  Hiding From Everyone And Everything By Going Into Your Own  Little World Without  Disruptions And Interruptions. I Wish I Won't Have To Confront It  And Run  Away From It All. Life Is Something To Think About  By Just Looking At  What Point You Are At Right Now. Is It Good Or Bad? Do You Really Want  To Be There? Are You Happy? That's The Question. There's A Lot  To Think About A Lot For Me To Think About. I Have To Decide  What's Good For Me The Pros And Cons And Where I Should  And Want To Be. Time Is Running Out. A New Life Is Coming  For Me. It's Sad I Won't Get To See The Same People I See Everyday Anymore. It Won't Be The Same. I Have To Be Strong  And Try To Smile. I Can Handle It. I Have To Look Towards The Bright Side. This Is Called The Initiation Of A New Chapter. ~Thanks~
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